pseudo_emily

The wait is over again..

2009-02-14T00:40:00.003+08:00

I hated Mondays since i was a kid and when i started working, it's Monday blue and now, i dread monday even more... why? Cos its another countdown to seeing baby! Guess i have no fate with Mondays.. Anyway, it's so nice to see Baby again and this time round, i felt kind of different seeing him again.. I really feel that i do love him alot and it kind of stunned me.. not that i don't love him but didn't imagine that it is so deep.. Seeing him today really makes me sooo happy and i couldn't stop looking at him for some reason.. he looked so handsome, so charming today... ok, kind of mushy but this is from the bottom of my heart.. i felt kind of inferior beside him.. though Baby always compliment me, makes me feel good but i can't help but feeling that i am not worth his love and effort.. Is this due to the low self esteem i have or i have no confidence in this relationship?

I am really glad that i met him but at the same time felt i shouldn't meet him at all... Age, is the barrier for us or for me at least. I know he didn't mind me being 5 years his senior but probably he is still young and didn't think that far but me? I am already 27 this year and look around me, gals at my age are already settled down or going to.. and i am still dating. Today, Mom told me that she hope Aaron and i would work out as in marriage so i get it that she likes him/approve of him. I felt like telling mom that i hope for the same thing but who can guarantee that Baby would love me enough to marry me? or that we do not have any obstacles in the future? Thinking that his mom will be the first to object our relationship.. Anyway, what's the point of thinking or talking about all these now? I don't even know if we can last which is why i always tell Baby to enjoy the time spent together, enjoy each others' company.. saying that doesn't make me feel good either.. it's the only way to remind me of not pinning high hopes on us..

I'm Sorry...

2009-02-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

I made Baby cried again... Yesterday was on the phone with baby and suddenly we were talking about our future. So i said, i don't think we can last long as in marriage.. so just enjoy the time now, enjoy each other's company.. After hearing that, he broke down. Thinking i am going to break up with him.. No, that's not my intention at all.. and i wouldn't wanna let him go..now. Aaron is nice, smart, sensitive and fun to be with.. most importantly, he gave me all his time and always make me feel important to him but also cos of all these, made me wonder sometimes that he is able to find someone prettier, smarter and most of all, younger. The age gap between us has always been a concern for me and i think he knows that it's bothering me.. even though with all his assurance, i can't help but thinking that we won't last... i know I'm being pessimistic but if i didn't care or doesn't love baby as much, i won't give a damn about our future..

A brand new start... Can't wait!

2009-02-11T22:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was my last day with a company that i stayed for almost 2 years. It's not that long but somehow, i can't bear to leave... maybe cos of the few people there and my comfort zone... Monday will be a brand new start for me in my career, feeling kind of nervous and scare.. Haiz.. but i know things are gonna work out and i am sure i can do it =)

Baby didn't call me last night, he was out in the range.. same for tonight.. got to wait till 12ish to hear his voice (hope so..) I missed him soooo much today that i wished i could see him right away.. The funny thing is he called me this morning about 645am.. and i was sleeping after sending him a sms around 630am.. u know, it's in the morning and i am still dreaming! So, he was already awake.. called me and told me why he couldn't call etc but to be honest, i dont quite remember what he said.. hehehe (Sorry baby!) i wasn't listening most of the time and had no clue what he said and how we ended the conversation... heheh.. Maybe i will ask him tonight when he call.. =p

Finally, completed my gift for baby.. damn difficult and that stupid thing kept hanging most of the time! Gosh.. and there was once that Baby called and i was doing the "thing" so i sounded distracted and he seemed upset that i didn't concentrate on talking to him... the worst thing is i can't tell him what i was up to, so just made an excuse that i was doing a slide for work.. Now u know, baby! This "thing" is actually pretty easy for most of you but me, being a computer idiot and non IT savvy.. it really gave me alot of headache but all's worth it if baby likes it =) can't wait to see his reaction!! =)

Lovey Dovey

2009-02-09T11:14:00.003+08:00

Alright, today i am gonna tender! Gosh, a lil nervous... wonder if it would be a smooth exit. Anyway, i don really give a damn anymore to her feelings.. Probably too much disappointment from her. So, i think i would be leaving on immediate notice and gonna start afresh in my new company next week.. Will be missing Mas alot =( too bad baby is in camp or i could spend the week with him.. Haiz!

Anyway, Valentine's day is coming! I have no idea what to give baby but at least i made something for him, hope he likes it cos i spent a lot of time and effort on it! He better appreciate it! Hehehe... I can't think of anything or anywhere to go.. completely no idea. Thought of bringing him to a watch a play at Esplanade but i can't seem to buy the tickets online, may have to make a trip down.. Sian! What else?? Erm, dinner at Sun WITH Moon (kept telling baby it's Sun and Moon but he's right, it's Sun WITH Moon.. hehehehe! Sorry baby =p) gotta crack my brain and come out with ideas soon!!

Hmm, miss my baby sooo much! Last weekend was great! I enjoyed myself with him almost everytime but on Fri was a lil sad... cos i found a note that his good friend (that's wat he claimed She is) made for him, with photos of them together and saying "Love you, Heather". I was kind of upset when i saw it. U know, it's like a gal (irregardless of the relationship) saying love you to your bf, somehow u wont feel good right? And the worst thing is, he just said:"Baby, it was a long time ago." and chucked it at one corner.. I thought or somehow wished that he would dump it for me but he didn't... What can i say right? Maybe i do not have the right to interfere with what he wants/don wanna keep. First, i saw his ex's photo in his laptop and then this lovely note from his friend.. what's next?? This is like the feeling that i had when i was with Les, slowly discovering all the stuffs he kept (ex's, flings etc) It's really hard for me to trust and just when i can trust baby, something like this happened and it swayed me a lil.. i told myself that Aaron is diff and indeed he is.. i really feel kind of insecure now, especially my love for him grow as each day passes and it kind of scares me... I really don know.. =(

Finally!!

2009-02-06T17:50:00.003+08:00

Please congratulate me... i had finally made up my mind as to leave or stay. All thanks to that C*** BYE (sorry for the vulgarity, ya?)for saying things that disappoint and hurt me. Almost 2 years of hard work is judge by 5 days of performance, how impartial she is! Anyway, it's good that she said those things to me or i would still be indecisive. What ever it is, right or wrong move; at least i know i won't regret. Before yesterday, i would be worried of leaving her but now, NO! Blessing in disguise, maybe..

Still thinking...

2009-02-02T10:14:00.004+08:00

Ok, i am still contemplating to leave or to stay.. There are so many pros and cons to consider.

Current Company:
Pros-

Pioneer, comfort zone.
Base is already there, don't need to do much on BD (thing that i hate most!!)
Beloved M is here.

Cons-

Retrenchment ongoing, might have another list coming up.
Rumors had it that our cash flow will only last till March if there isn't any extraordinary placement fees (Banks are not willing to lend us any cash, no investors coming in!)
Dislike the management's style (sending "junk mails" always)
Moving to Cecil court in March (Gosh! that's damn far from sis...)
There isn't any energy in the company anymore (heard that everyone is looking out!)

Ok, i can see the cons are more than the pros...

New company:

Pros:

Growing the IT department.
Lower targets, higher comm scheme
I tend to stand out in the company (not for my looks but my experience =) )
More focused on staffing, rather than HH. Focused on Quantity rather than Quality.

Cons:

Have to build up the database from scratch which means BD (Sian!!)
Not too sure of the company's financial status as in whether they are the "Hire, Fire" type.
Very localised, hard for me to move back to executive level in the future.

So... can anyone tell me your opinions based on what i mentioned above. What would you do if you were me? Stay or leave???

Decisions!

2009-01-28T13:50:00.005+08:00

Damn it! I hate to make decisions like this... Well, the thing is i am looking out and lucky me, i have this offer from another firm but... i have no idea how to break this news to that idiot! Gosh, if i had tender say, 1 week earlier; it would had been so much easier! Haiz! Right now, left me in the department, if i were to tender now; i bet she won't let me go.... Help me! What am i supposed to say in order to convince her to let me go??

So sickening! There are so many IFs, if i stay; would it be better? If i leave, would i be able to perform in another firm? If she gives me an increment, should i stay? Blah Blah Blah... Tough Tough Tough... But within myself, i had decided, more or less to leave.. anyway, most of my colleagues left, only Mas - Long Service Award! Hahaha... provided that sickening company would still survive for the next 2 or 3 years.. (doubt so..)

Put aside the stupid "work" thingy, let me tell you more about MY baby =) mentioning him puts a smile on my face. I just enjoyed every min spent with him. We don't really have to plan for a romantic dinner or an "out of the box" ideal date; a simple dinner and chill out session makes us enjoyed each other so much! To see each other less = Less conflicts.. i totally agree! Time makes the heart grow fonder, everytime i have to wait at least 5 days to see him and when i finally get to see him, there isn't any rooms for quarrels.. It's like, i don't have or don't want to start any fight with him.. Likewise for Baby.. Cos we know time is precious for us. We ain't any normal couple that could meet up everyday, every sec spent is so worthwhile and precious that we can't afford to spend on any stupid fights/quarrels! Gosh, i so like this feeling... It's like we trust each other and we still have that "sparkle" everytime we meet.. Hmm, it's just so nice! And the best thing is, Baby would like me to go back to the US with him when he is on leave next year.. I know it's still far but thinking of it makes me feel soooo excited =)

Ok, back to thinking of my work thingy... Sian!

Fruitful wait =)

2009-01-24T14:20:00.002+08:00

Hmm, 12 days countdown is finally over!! Had a wonderful night with Baby... Though didn't do much but it was nice just spending time together and talking. It's wonderful how we can talk on endless topics - his NS life, my work, our goals etc; exchanging opinions and advice.

After 12 days of wait, seeing him yesterday was really beyond words.. though i wasn't especially affectionate but i hope Baby knows that i am really glad that he is in my arms again.. Well, gonna meet his dad in a while for happy hour.. Gosh!! i am sweating now.. deciding what to wear, how to greet him, what to say when I'm there.. blah blah blah.. Never been so nervous before.. GBM, please let it be a smooth meeting!

Journey to the 12 days countdown

2009-01-12T12:53:00.002+08:00

12 freaking days to go before i can see my baby.. Haiz! Not that long though but it's the missing him part that is unbearable.. I can say that Aaron and i are stable now, we love each other, dote on each other and care abt each other. Especially since he was enlisted to NS, i start to love him more and wanted to see him more than before.. last weekend we met, i couldn't bear to let him go and i missed him so much now. He is so sweet to me, so caring and loving. He is just like a lil boy when he is with me and it melts me..

Going to HK to work is my goal and to be honest, no one can stop me. We discussed this last Sat and i can sense that Aaron isn't pleased with the idea of me relocating. I think he wants me to stay by his side. I wanted to but it's my career that we are talking about. I don't wanna stay in SG forever, it's not my objective. I want to explore outside SG, i want to gain more exposure. It might not be now but i am sure i will realise this dream of mine, sooner or later... Going to US with him sounds like a dream to me, not that i don't believe Aaron will bring me there but i don even know if we can last that long.. From what i see nw, Aaron is like the kind of husband i would want but you will never know when things would change..

Gosh!! I need plenty of Luck!!

2009-01-07T13:10:00.002+08:00

As usual, sitting at my desk, staring at my laptop, wondering who i can call... For business.
Gosh! Starting to hate my job... especially at this period of time, what a crisis! :( I have totally no vision, no idea what is my next step. How to achieve what i had promised. They said recession is a period where opportunity arises.. where?? I don see any coming...

Thinking hard and long.. should i lookout now? Probably not a good timing anyway, sent a couple of emails for openings in HKG, hopefully i can hit the bull's eye. Please call me!! Sometimes, wishing that baby could bring me to US, settle there as a devoted housewife.. hehehehehe... *day dreaming* Even if there's such a chance, doubt i would take it.. cos I'm so ambitious, so career minded.. hope Aaron is able to stand this side of me...

Oh, and my baby is in NS... add on to my sorrows.. wished that there is a shoulder for me to lean on after work but can't. Got to wait for weekends... Haiz! It's not that i hate the idea of him being in NS, just that when i need him; wish he's here for me.. i really have no idea how long we can last being sweet and caring to each other, loving and missing each other every min and sec. Insecurity is the word. It's hard for me to trust someone and Aaron really need to put in extra effort to gain my trust.. It's unfair for him but i can't control it.. Anyway, take a step at a time then...

Bad day, bad timing

2009-01-05T17:39:00.005+08:00

I am writing this entry while working my ass off. Things are not looking fine now; for me, for all. I don know how long this is gonna last and i hope it will be over soon. This is recession and is the worst hit that we ever encountered but people are still nonchalant about it, shopping, spending, eating and partying. Is this the real mentality of Singaporeans? Are we really that gullible to think that this year would be better than previous? I really have no idea when we would be really prepared for the worst or are we already preparing?

Only in my trade of line and industry that are affected by this economic crisis will know how bad the situation is. The others might read about it from the news but are they putting this into their mind and be prepared for the worst? Jobs are froze, retrenchment going on, wages are cut. Arent it obvious enough for us to be aware about the situation? Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..

Anyway, i could just cross my fingers and hope for the best.. not just for me but the whole economy.. GB!

Day 1 without LES

2008-08-27T15:16:00.001+08:00

When things comes to no return, guess no matter what you do or how much you try; it's just too late..

Break-up is a sad loss. It shatters lives. But is a break-up bad? If the circumstances before the break-up were intolerable, then the break-up may actually be good for the couple.

Les and i had so much misunderstandings that there is just no way for us to return to where we started. We shared so much tears, joys and disappointments. I wouldn't blame him for the hurt he did to me cos he once treated me well and i will always remember it till the end of time. People doubt my love for him, thinking i chosed to be with him out of sympathy, loneliness or money. Be my guest and think what you like, as long as i know i do love him; it's enough.

"We broke up".. i repeated this sentence umpteen times to friends and family but we still got back together. Why and what, i don't know. Maybe we are just too used to each other's company or we are too drained to start a new relationship or we really do love each other. Seriously, if you ask me, i would have no ans... Les is a nice guy, someone who would care about his partner but guess i appeared at the wrong time. In my memory, his lies occupies a bigger space than his love for me.. it's too deep a cut to forget, it's too much for me to bear. When one is in love, one always begins by deceiving one's self, and one always ends by deceiving others. I always tell myself that one day i would forget about those lies, those pain and hurt , I deceived myself and him... i just could't do it.

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go. To make that decision, it's not easy for me too. Onlookers think why am i so cruel to les, why can't we just work it out again? You think i wouldn't want to? You think saying those 2 words are as simple as saying F*** U?? I had to have so much courage, bearing the thought that i am going to lose him forever but i know it will benefit us both in the long run.. maybe more to him than me.

What les had given me is like magic, Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion.

It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

There is no regret to the time and effort i put in for you, i can only regret that we aren't fated...

Super duper stress!!

2008-08-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hihi... it's been long since i update my blog. Ya ya, i know! Lazy right? What to do? Been terribly busy with my work, social life, love... More to come ok? But this time round, i think it will purely be a dairy for me.. I need to put my thoughts somewhere. No one can understand the stress and unhappiness that i went through or rather going through. Life's a bitch! And that's true... Well, for now i do not have much to complain about but trust me, more is to come...

In times of great stress or adversity, it is always best to keep busy, to blow your anger and your energy into something positive

My cutie nephew!

2007-07-02T17:00:00.003+08:00

A New Life Is Born...

After such a long wait, my cute lil nephew is finally out! Thank God!

He is such an adorable and healthy baby and guess what? Looks

exactly like my jie fu lo! Photocopied sia!! Luckily for Dawson, he

don't have my sis's eyes or we will be so sad... (haha! no offence, sis)

Well, his eyes are as big as his dad and the same thin lips.. Looking at

him, he does looks handsome man!

After years of freedom, honeymoon period, a baby is now in their

lifes.. i wonder they can really get used to it? I do agree that babies

can be a nuisance sometimes, hungry also cry, full also cry, poo poo

also cry, urine also cry, even nobody company him sleep also cry!

Peng!! y? they like to cry so much?? "Shrugs!". Don't ask me how i

know, cos i experienced it myself! Was taking care of Dawson over

the weekends, had to rock him to sleep... He haven sleep, i slept liao..

Damn tired and he was so awake lo! Had a hard time man, but was

worth it afterall.. :)

Sat was his full month party, didn't get to take any PHOTOS with

him!!! GRR!!! y? cos he was always surrounded by those hungry

looking aunties and uncles!! Eek! they looked at Dawson as if they

wanna swallow him alive, almost dripping their salivas over him!

(okok, maybe i was being exagerating) jealousy took over me.. I

carried him the most for 5 mins and someone would come snatching

him from my arms. ARUGH!!! if i have a parang, definately chop

them man! (opps! kidding la!) There is someone more pathetic than

me, hahaha! Thats' his "Fei Yee" lo! Poor sarah, can't even carry him

for a min.. Wahaha!! The moment she carried him from my mom's

arms, sis came for him and said:" ppl wan to take photos with him, let

me carry him." Rara was like (Ha??!!) :" i just carried him only le... :

( sob... Sob.. sob...) Haiz! poor gal..

See? even Dawson laughing at you! heehee!!!

That day you should carry him to the toliet and locked the door ma! At least can carry for 5 mins. Stupid le!

"I know i very cute... but no need to snatch till like that ma!" (Roll Eyes!)

What the F#$%?? Just like your Daddy! Dawson, behave!!

However long the night, the dawn will break...

2007-04-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

You said the words I love you,

But it is obvious things have changed.

I said the words I love you,

And my feelings are still the same.

You said I'll love you forever,

But forever wasn't long enough.

I said I'll love you always,

And I'll mean it forever.

But I can not imply to you

What that means,

'Cause your version of Forever Isn't what it seems,

And my version of Always Seems like

an unrealistic dream.

You said the words I love you,

But it is obvious things have changed.

I said the words I love you,

And my feelings are still the same.

You said I'll love you forever,

But forever wasn't long enough.

I said I'll love you always,

And I'll mean it forever.

But I can not imply to you What that means,

'Cause your version of Forever Isn't what it seems,

And my version of Always

Seems like an unrealistic dream.

The saddest love is to love someone, to know that they still want you, but the circumstances don't let you have them

.......J t'aime.......

2007-02-12T13:15:00.000+08:00

Je t'aime ...

love love love love love love love love love love

Dear Les,

Through all the changes in my life,

your love has remained constant and unconditional.

Though at times you may have questioned,worried or wondered...

you never stopped loving me.

On this day of love, I want you to know how very much that means.

You who have loved me first, love me best.

Thank you for all the love you've shared.

If I could reinvent the alphabet,I would put U and I together

I have know Les for almost 2 years.. it's not that long looking back but he is the only one that will share my joy and sorrow. We started out as friends, real buddies.. Whenever i quarrelled with my exs, he would be the one that i would look for, to cry with. No matter what happens, he would be the first to be there for me.. Thank you for all the countless, caring ways you've filled my life with love.

To be honest, i am really a nasty person to be with (especially with guys!) But i just don understand y are you so willing to accomodate my bad temper, always the one to compromise? I felt touched, touched by what you did for me all these while... my close friends always tell me to treasure you, accept you but i just didnt look your way since i met you...

Ever since we started, i begin to understand why is it that you are so tolerant with me... it's simply because when you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults,you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes.Instead, you forgive the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses.

My dearly, you made me feel loved and pampered just like what you always call me, Little princess. :) this is what i have been searching for and i am so stupid to realise it only now..

Les, I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go. No matter what happens, i hope you know that i will always be there for you.. I don't have to be ur first love, but I do want to be ur last...

,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-. ,-.-.

`. ,' `. ,' `. ,' `. ,' `. ,' `. ,' `. ,' `. ,' `. ,'

I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for a world in shades of gray
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why and I looked into your eyes
Where the world stretched out in front of me and I realized
I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived, before your love
I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you and my heart is in your hands
And I don't know how I survived without your kiss
'Cause you've given me a reason to exist
And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me just in time

Before Your Love - Kelly Clarkson

Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow to die

2007-01-05T10:40:00.000+08:00

Well, It's a start of a brand new year! 2007 = 1 year older!! Sad sad sad... haiz! Resolutions for the new year? Nothing in my mind yet.. :(

Ever crossed your mind that perhaps twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Explore. Dream. Discover.

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you're going to live. Now. Whatever resolutions you might have plan for the coming year, discard them and live your life with SURPRISES!!

Erm.. Maybe i do have something in mind...

My Plans for 2007....

Buy the moon..

When they say "Room with view" I really mean it. (Space House)

The Best Paid Maid in world (Paris Maid)

Walking with My Dog

I just use a diamond glass/cup for my drink.

Golf of Course

My Security

Only the best mountain spring water is used to flush the toilets

I guess this is what financial experts call "disposable income"

Chanel Pool

My house and long cars.

Greedy?? Don't think so right?! Haha!!

Take care and keep smiling :)

What is the meaning of life? To be happy and useful.

The love of a family is life's greatest blessing

2006-12-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

The happiest moments of my life have been the few which I have passed at home in the bosom of my family

Had a wonderful dinner with my family at a Fine dining restuarant along Bukit Timah... Fantastic night... Its all about pressies, pressies and PRESSIES!!

My wonderful mom and her 3 very lovely daughters... heehee!!

Erm... Who's the prettiest?? :)

Haiz... Needless to say right? haha!

I can't tell you how much i adore this tee... AX!! OMG!! It's so nice to have an elder sis... Wahaha!!

Jie fu also not

bad la... found something that suits my taste! lalalalala.... As for RARA, what she gave me, it's already on me! (In case ya too cork eyed, it's the white necklace on my neck!!)

Talking about the presents.. i guess my sis would be the happiest this year.. must be laughing till her jaws dropped. I got her a nice Gucci wallet (fact that she don need one!) and Jie fu got her a heart listener for their baby.. (nothing better to do, just sit down and listen to your BB's heart beat...) Well well, she got what she wanted this year! Happy like F*** right?! I could smell my pockets burning!! :(

Not forgetting RARA, the blood sucker! Sis got her an elegant pair of earrings, Jie Fu got her a watch... and me? Ta Dah!! a brand new Samsung MP3!! Look at her stupid smiling face! As if she strike a lottery.. (actually sort of la!)

What about "Cool Guy" ? heehee.. i got him a long tee from CK and an executive shirt.. (keep complaining he don have enough!) Sis gave him an AX t- shirt (same expression as RARA... Omgz!!) and guess what RARA had for him??? A JUMBO size Boster! Pengzzzz.... Erm, what was she thinking when she's buying it??

Can u guess what's that?? It's actually soup! Isn't that a brillant idea? Cool man!

RARA "Ta" as if she is drinking tequila. (Bet she don even know what's that...)

A few snapshots to round up my lovely dinner :)

There's more, much more to Christmas

Than candle-light and cheer;It's the spirit of sweet friendship

That brightens all the year;

It's thoughtfulness and kindness,

It's hope reborn again,For peace, for understanding

And for goodwill to men!

♫ May Peace be your gift at Christmas and your blessing all year through ♫

2006-12-22T11:17:00.000+08:00

* Selfishness makes Christmas a burden, love makes it a delight *

Had my company's annual Christams Dinner at the Townhouse, IT WAS AWESOME!! Fun, Drinks, Jokes... all to bring out the festive joy....

Lucky Man!! Augustine! Our Mr Bombay.. haha!

Wow!! All the ladies!! Erm, Gals' power??

Not forgetting our very own 3 Muskerteers!!

Erm, i got nothing to say about this... well, practise makes perfect right? Keep it up! Anjali! (she can shake well...) Opps!!

Hmm... my dear Harry looks nice ha! That goes without saying...

Did you ever notice that life seems to follow certain patterns? Like I noticed that every year around this time, I hear Christmas music.

Jingle Bells... Jingle bells.. Jingle all the way..

What do you call people who are afraid of Santa Claus? Claustrophobic

2006-11-15T14:06:00.000+08:00

Christmas waves a magic wand over this world,

and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful.

It's here again!! Christmas!! Ta- Dah!!!! That's my favourite festival, presents, dinners, celebrations... YoHOO!! Can't hardly wait for it's arrival :)

Well, same old thing for Singapore... Christmas lighting at Orchard. Went to take a look last Sat but find that last year was better.. this year's like celebrating Deevapali! So GOLD!! OMG!

Been to Tokyo during Christmas before, that was awesome! The decor was like it's their first or last Christmas ever.. erm.. i meant they put in a lot of effort for the festive. But SG?? Well, there is no ideal Christmas; only the one Christmas you decide to make as a reflection of your values, desires, affections, traditions. Most importantly, it is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air...

Speaking of presents, hmm.. i wonder what my sisters would buy for me?? heehee.. pretty excited. That goes without saying i got to BUT THEM TOO! Haiz.. I always have this thinking: "Christmas is the season when you buy this year's gifts with next year's money." ------ a very genius invention: CREDIT CARD!! Wahaha!! Can always pay back in Jan, hopefully i would have spare cash then. (God bless me :( ....)Probably the reason we all go so haywire at Christmas time with the endless unrestrained and often silly buying of gifts is that we don't quite know how to put our love into words.

That's my lovely sis with her new life in the tummy...

I can't describe to you how i laugh till my jaws dropped when i saw this pic!! I have no idea how jeff took it but this is like candid camera! At the exact moment when RaRa pouted with her eyes closed!! Wahahahahahaha... looking at it now still can make me laugh till i "pengz" !!! :) She is gonna kill me if she see this pic in my blog. LaLaLaLa.... who cares?!

Do you actually believe in Santa Claus? Seriously, i never did.. ok, just once! Cos my mom never give me a chance to have little kids' fantasy...that Santa would come and bring me the present i longed for. I still remembered when i was about 7, the very first time i asked my mom about Santa's presence, if he is coming to bring me gifts? you know what my mom said? " Santa Claus will not bring u any presents, he will abduct you if ya naughty!" My eyes went wide, jaws dropped.. thinking; "ok, fine.. no Christmas presents..."

Just some jokes to bring out the joy in you for the coming festive!!

Ways to confuse Santa:

Leave him a note, explaining that you've gone away for the holidays. Ask if he would mind watering your plants.

While he's in the house, replace all his reindeer with exact replicas. Then wait and see what happens when he tries to get them to fly.

Keep an angry bull in your living room. If you think a bull goes crazy when he sees a little red cape, wait until he sees that big, red Santa suit!

Build an army of mean-looking snowmen on the roof, holding signs that say "We hate Christmas," and "Go away Santa."

Leave a note by the telephone, telling Santa that Mrs. Claus called and wanted to remind him to pick up some milk and a loaf of bread on his way home.

While he's in the house, cover the top of the chimney with barbed wire

The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other

You know you are getting old when the candles cost more than the cake

2006-11-05T16:30:00.000+08:00

Hey Eve,

♣ A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip!! ♣

Sat was Eve's birthday.. Had a little celebration at Indo Chine, Club Street.. not too bad! The place was empty as if Eve booked the whole area... well, we can have all the fun we want! :)

This year's celebration was a little simple for Eve, prob we all grown up.. wanna tone down a bit? heehee.. Erm, same group of friends.. same chaos... same FUN!!

My dear Eve:

From our birthday, until we die, is but the winking of an eye. Treasure what you have and enjoy life with no regrets... We used to be so crazy, so havoc, so mischievous.. if you still remember. All that had passed, what lies in front is not known. No wise man ever wished to be younger, you had been through so much to achieved what you are and what you have now.. i am so glad for ya..

Anyway, we know we're getting old when the only thing we want for our birthday is not to be reminded of it.. hmm.. maybe for me only :(

Last of all... Eve, the more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate. So please please be more optimistic!! Will be there for you always!!

The BEST of Birthdays of all are those that haven't arrived yet!!

Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work

2006-11-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work

Fabulous dinner held at a North Indian Restaurant at East Coast to celebrate our Quarter for the year! Erm.. Indian Cuisine is never my favourite but what to do? The boss has the say! :(

Hmm.. looks like everyone is looking forward to what is going to be laid in front of them.. but definately not ME!

Whey Whey!! The 4 beauties in our company... heehee, i am in the list too ok? :)

Follow by the 2 prettiest.. (Wahaha!) That's Adel, nice lady indeed!

OMG!! Don't tell me its' the "brothers" joining in the fun? Gotcha! it's the smoke la! Aiyo....

Well, looking at his size.. you should have guess he must be the big shot in my company right? Yup! Introducing Mark, my MD!! Australian and he is damn humourous! (Can see that i feel dominated by him ha?!)

More work. Less fun. More money. More buying

2006-10-31T18:02:00.000+08:00

Erm... Had a bad day at work? Couldn't be worse than him right?...

Do you sometimes wonder if we work for the money or the passion? To be honest, I work to live....I don't live to work. .. Heehee! Reality world ok?!
But.. lucky for me, my company is real good to all the staffs. Well, they take note of employees' welfare. At least i won't feel this way...

Every job is a self-portrait of the person who did it, so always
autograph yours with excellence. But then again, you will never know what kind of colleagues ya dealing with.. Hypocrites or Mr nice guy? Well, If crying and pouting don't work....BITCH !! That's what my spit fire sis would do.. Gee! that's her way of survival in this harsh world...i beg to differ 'cos i always believe one thing;
The toes you step on today, may be connected to the A** that you have to kiss tomorrow.
That's the reason why i rather be a loner, not being involved in any bitching that might bring me headaches!
The trouble about being in a rat race is... Just when you thought you were winning the race,
along come faster rats and even if you win,you are still a rat !! [can't agree more on that. :P]

Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

Know what i am driving at? Yeah! BOSSES!! They are the ones that you can't defy no matter what. And to save your ass, please remember these advices...( erm, after some time in the society, that's what i gather..)

Two rules to be a good employee:
Rule #1:

The boss is always right.

Rule #2:

When the boss is wrong...see Rule #1 !!

To err is human, to forgive is NOT THEIRS' policy. Bosses always have this mentality: "Put up with me !! I won't put up with you. " Sad to say, you got to follow their rules in order to survive.. Haiz! That's life... SUCKS!

And you know what? I realised these are the things you would never say it at work.

1. Never give me work in the morning. Always wait until 5:00 and then bring it to me. The challenge of a deadline is always refreshing.

2. If it's really a "rush job," run in and interrupt me every 10 minutes to inquire how it's going. That greatly aids my efficiency.

3. Always leave without telling anyone where you're going. It gives me a chance to be creative when someone asks where you are.

Wahaha!! Don't tell me all these actually crossed your mind when ya having a 'war' with your boss??? Advice you not, or ya gonna be packing your stuff the next minute..

My friend just emailed me this joke, find it sooo ridiculous...

This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.

There was an important job to be done and Everybody was asked to do it. Everybody was sure Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job.

Everybody thought Anybody could do it but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

If that's what ya experiencing at work. Erm... Good luck!!

Actually it all depends on individual, how would you wan to spend 80% of your day? Your work habits are your signature of life. Remember: When work is a pleasure, life is a joy.
When work is a duty, life is slavery. That all depends on you...

Love or Hate...

2006-10-26T17:31:00.000+08:00

Would you spend your life loving or hating someone?

Not long ago i spent almost 5 months hating someone, the one that i used to love with all my heart. I think of him 24 7, a song, a place, a smell would remind me of him. That period makes me feel like i am in hell. I told myself that if i hate him, life would be so much easier rather than missing him every minute. Everyday i was wishing i could have the chance to tell him: "I hate that you fooled me with your infectios smile! I hate that you told me you loved me! But...

That's totally wrong! My life was even miserable than before. I had to force myself from the temptation of calling and thinking of him, told myself umpteen times that this is such a hateful person and what's between us is only resentment. Nobody understands what i had been through, i may look happy though but my heart is actually bleeding... Soon, i realised a fact, There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. I told myself, i want to be happy, free from all these shit! So, i forgive and forget.. i can't possibly pretend we didn't meet at all. Come to think about it, there are still happy memories in my mind that will be with me till the end of time.

Vinz:

Love is like a mountain, hard to climb, but once you get to the top

the view is beautiful.

It's a shame that we didnt have the chance to climb to the top together, but all in all, you are still someone unforgettable to me. To the world you may be one person, but to me, you are the world. I won't wish you all the best 'cos you always have the best, i hope you can treasure the next best.

Who can give the definition of LOVE?

Is it an illusion? A need or a want?

How much does LOVE matters to you?

And would it be too late when you finally realise the one for you is actually right before you?

Love is strong yet delicate.

It can be broken.

To truly love is to understand this.

To be in love is to respect this.

My dear friends, once you found someone that you trust to be the one, learn to treasure and love till the end of time...Cos in LOVE, there is no second chance....

A new life... A new hope...

2006-10-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

A new life... A new Hope...

A CHILD TO LOVE

You can have your wealth and riches...

All the things so many seek, Position, power,

fine success,

The fame you long to keep.

You can earn so much you wish for,

Reach a status high above,

But none of these can equal...

Having one sweet child to love.

'Tis the greatest gift from heaven,

Little arms that hold you tight,

And a kiss so soft and gentle

When you tuck them in at night.

A million precious questions

And each story often read,

Two eyes so bright and smiling,

And a darling tousled head.

God can never match the goodness Of a trusting little face,

Or a heart so full of laughter

Spreading sunshine every place.

A child to hold and cuddle,

'Tis a gift from God above,

And the world is so much brighter

When you have a child to love.

Look at these babies!! OMG! Aren't they adorable? Feel like pinching them...

Love this pic the most! She's so sexy!! Whee Whee!

"Yoz! What's Up?! Wanna date me? Hmmm... WLL!!"

Time files.. My sis had been married for almost 8 years! These years of honeymoon period for them is finally over cos they are expecting a baby boy or gal next year!! I am soooo excited, delighted, shocked, exhilarant... i am just too happy beyond words...

My Dear sis, No matter it's a boy or a gal.. it's a new beginning to your life! I am very sure that the baby would be loved by you guys, and ME!! :) Ta- Dah!!

I'm your little miracle, safe in Mommy's womb,

Be patient as I grow just right, we'll hold each other soon.

Your coming months will be full, buying rattles, clothes and bibs,

Filling my room with teddy bears, jammies, blankets and a crib.

Smiling when I hiccup, laughing when I kick,

Pouring over baby names, deciding which to pick.

I already love you, although our eyes have yet to meet,

I felt your joy inside,

the day you witnessed my heart beat.

Celebrate my new life, and the love from which I grew,

We'll soon be together, your little miracle and you.

OMG!! Can somebody do something? :(

2006-10-06T16:23:00.000+08:00

OMG!! Can somebody do something? :(

Youngsters nowadays take SEX too lightly. Not only videos of love makings are out on the net, some even got pregnant due to lack of prevention. Why? is it cos our education systems didn't convey the message of safe sex to our young adults properly? Or it's thrill to be a mother before you become a wife? Hey all, a little poem to make you wake up your ideas!

sex is a sin

kissing is a shame

boys have all the fun

while girls get the blame

one night of pleasure

9 months of pain

3 days in the hospital with a baby to name

boys say you cute

boys say you fine

but when they have your baby's they say it 'aint mine

you might think I'm crazy

but take my advice

don't be a mother

before you be a wife

♥ FRIENDS ♥

2006-10-05T14:29:00.000+08:00

♥ FRIENDS ♥

" A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

I will always be there for you,and I hope you will be there for me too,for our friendship can never be broken,I will remain loyal through all the good and the bad,and in the end we will be glad,because without you I am nothing,as you are nothing without me,we fill the space a lover couldn't fill,for we hold each others secrets that we would never spill,and the day you're gone, part of me goes too,because I wouldn't want to be here with out you,Best

friends forever you and me,nothing could ever change that; it's destiny!

Had been friends with Kris for long... we are like a pair that is inseparable in others eyes.

We talk about everything under the sun, never will we neglect each other's feelings. Whenever i am troubled, she will definately show her concern and lend me a helping hand. Fate chooses our relatives, we choose our friends, glad that i choose the right one :) .... We even made a pact that when we reach 30 and we are still single, then we will cohabit together...Heehee.. (Hope not!)

To Kris:

A friend is someone who understands and someone you can trust.

They will listen to you both night and day without ever making a fuss.

A friend will stand by your side when you are right and sometimes when you are wrong.

They will hold you up when you are weak and provide support to make you strong.

A friend's love is unconditional and unique in every way. And when you have problems a true friend will kneel with you and pray.

A friend will stand by your side through thick and thin.And whenever everyone have deserted you they still will be your friend.

A friend once said to me that a friend is sent from God above and I believe this to be true.

Because God has sent a friend to me and that friend to me is YOU.

♣♣♣ lazy, relax Sat ♣♣♣

2006-10-01T10:34:00.000+08:00

♣♣♣ lazy, relax Sat ♣♣♣

♠ Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo,
but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you
when the limo breaks down. ♠

What would u rather do on a sat? clubbing? Shopping? Movies? or... spend a fruitful day with your family?? i chose the latter...

Thats my lovely sisters... hmmm.. why does Sarah looks so stern? Come on! say cheesezzzzz!!

heehee... can't blame me for being a Narcissus!

Isn't she lovely? She is the only one in the world that i would give way to...♥
Not that i am unrerasonable to others!

I love my sister with all my heart

As we grew older we've grown apart

The best friend I had, the secrets we shared

No one could doubt our love that we cared

Now miles between us and long distance apart

♥I love you sis, with all of my heart.♥

"Rob-B-Hood" is such a hilarious movie!! Sarah and I were laughing till the end.. Haha! And Louis Khoo is damn handsome man! saliva dripping... Gee!

2006-09-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

Man fall in love through their eyes, Woman fall in love through their ears... :)
How long can a marriage last? depends on the love that pulls each other together or on the many other factors that we would have to face after married. Afterall, its not a totally "2 persons' issue"....

24th Sep 2006 is a very special day to our group of gals, cos it's JOYCE'S WEDDING!!! YoHOO!!
But... before i take any wedding photos, hee... got myself a few shots.. Wahaha!
KAWAII LE!!

Had a real hard time finding that Saint Joseph Church.. Haiz! But i have to say that walking down the aisle with your dad towards the one and only guy that u love and going to spend the rest of your lifes together, its just soooo touching.

That's our pretty bride :) Hmm.. I guess she must be damn nervous with all eyes on her.

Wow! That is the moment when all Dad would say: "Better take care of my daughter or else..."

The vows for a lifetime... When you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible...

Aha!Thats the moment we had been waiting for... Quick! give Joyce a Big Wet Kiss.. Muackz!

Thats' Eve, the "Panic Queen". Hmm.. time files, we had been buddies for almost 3 years. Not that long but the memories are enough to last for a lifetime...Not forgetting Liyun, our "Blur Queen" (in pink) .... My buddy too :)

Hey! have a quick lunch but not a full one... Fabulous dinner is waiting for us.. mmm..

OMG!! isn't this little boy CUTE?? He is Eve's cousin.. Can't believe she has such a cutie boy as relative :( y not me?

Banquet was held at Rendezvous Hotel... Pretty Cool!

And that's me... Can't recognize? :P

Hmm... Looks like everyone is enjoying..i meant the food!!

Erm... How many babes did you see?? heehee or monkeys rather!

Sitting: me, eve, Liyun, Jas

Standing: Louann and Kris

Friends FOREVER!! no... BUDDIES FOREVER!!! ♥

What the hell!! Ah Lians....

Mom, don worry... i am not like them.

I am damn full... feel like puking

:( maybe the red wine is taking its effect.

Dumb man + Smart woman = Marriage

Joyce, all the best to you and may happiness be with you always...

Clubbing..Dancing...Drinking...:)

2006-09-25T10:08:00.000+08:00

Hooo... there is a new club opened in town! Can't really recall it's name, St James.. something. Heard from my friends that the big boss behind is Dennis Foo, Devils Bar's owner.
Big though but don't really like the concept, it's more like a Canto disco :( But the dancers are cool!

The decor is nice, bet they must have spent a bomb on it!

2006-08-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

Knowing when to leave is like knowing when to love, Brace yourself for the new future!! :)